For the Longest Time

in the great words of billy joel.

it has been some time since i wrote anything but i am sadly not up to too much.  i work, i paddle (a lot) and do regular things like go out to dinner and meet up with people.

today, we had a time trial for outrigger.  i did fine especially considering ive injured my neck/shoulder and havent been practising as much as of late.  the rain was coming down and the monsoon warning was lifted so it was less than ideal conditions.  and 6 and a half hours later, i finally arrived home soaked through to the bone.

tonight is the yacht club pool party but i just cannot be bothered.  ive downloaded the second season of 'call the midwife' which is on bbc about midwives in england in the early 50's.  plus, the haggis has left for the uk for his mothers birthday and i am quite looking forward to an evening on my own.  i do miss him but its the first night so keen to do some 'me time'.

ive realised, with the haggis (who ive decided, at times, is much like rupercht from dirty rotten scoundrels' - see the video below if you're unfamiliar) off to the uk, that i dont have many friends.  a really nice woman from the firm in new york has moved over.  we get on quite well and she said to me, "people think because i am friendly that i have lots of friends, when the truth is, i dont."  i am similar as i have friends from different pockets of my life.  i dont have a clique, per se, never have and dont really want one.  i value and appreciate the differences in people and get along with random folks from areas in my life.

i am long beyond the days where i feel bad about myself because i stay in on a saturday night but i do wonder if ive become too couple-ised?  ive never wanted to become that girl whose life revolves around a boyfriend.  i can justify things and say ive never been able to trust and completely put myself into another person until now.  and when that happens, those are your priorities.  but the other part of me knows and feels that girlfriends are important.  i have them, but they are quality, not quantity and at times they are half way across the world.

so, i guess until i have some answers, i am happy with who i am and what relationships i have - which is the best way to be!