Was it a Dream?

back in hong kong, it feels like a dream...or perhaps it is my jet lag.  either way, i feel like i am floating outside my body looking down back on a life that is is no longer mine and looking up on one that doesnt feel quite right either.  after this trip, i realise i do not have a life in manhattan anymore.  my life is in hong kong.  i do not belong here and i do not belong there.

i love love love new york and that was reinforced the minute i got into the glorious city.  but it hit home that when i come back, i will have to start all over again.  my job that i love is here (fingers crossed for an easy transfer).  my friends that know what is going on in my daily life are here.  my flat is here with all my lovely shoes in it.

however, i fear if i do not leave soon (12-18 months) then i never will.  life is decidedly easier and cheaper here other than the finding-a-decent-man thing...here i bump into boys with complexes and baggage so large and unattended to it would put closed heathrow to shame.  and those kinda boys with their tattered baggage just doesnt jive with me and my matching tumi set.  and as much as i long to be back in new york, leaving scares my knickers right off.  i like my life here.  i love the travel.  i am addicted to the cheap cabs.  but i miss the ballet - attending more than one class a week as well as seeing good ballet performed.  i miss museums and galleries and indie rock bands.  i miss the diversity of people - the way they look and think.  but at the same time, i forgot how self-absorbed new york'ers can be...not that people in hong kong are not, but new york'ers have it worked out to an art form.

so much of me has changed and i am unsure as to where i fit.

despite all this, ive decided to just work hard, save money and have fun while the rest of my time ticks down here.  tick...tock...tick...

on a lighter note - how are your resolutions going?  mine are set up to be (hopefully) attainable:

• to take at least a day off from drinking a week
• and therefore hopefully lose some weight
• 5 to 10 pounds is my KPI
• save money
• KPI:  to hit the USD six figure mark (i am unsure i will reach this one...)
• stop cursing so much 
• and for a KPI on this one, it is to drop the "f" word which basically cuts my speaking time in half

we will see!!!!!!!

here are some pictures to really lighten the mood.  some from nye and others from one of the many work christmas parties where i received two awards ;)

ta ta for now!
xxo